Friday, March 25, 2011

Some Things Sucks For A Reason ^^,

Some call this day the best of all days in a week.
I never thought it’d be this memorable. Oh yeah! It will be… who would’ve thought that I’ll have my first car accident. I never saw it coming. Time flew fast. Things happen and well, it was inevitable.


I was zooming for the exit when this small cab truck came swerving on the same direction. I was really clueless that he’d already hit me until he gave out a cry.

Nerves blew up! And I just couldn’t believe it. It’s like facing a rather big emergency and I was in it. I was no audience of it but a person involve in it.

Of all those 2 years of escaping close car swerve, sudden brakes, and some near the thought car collisions. I just had my first car side hit. And of all places I should be on an accident is within the confines of my area of duty.

The authorities came, called my mom. The man who hit me was blabbing, my friend assuring me that I did no wrong. It was trauma. The last thing I thought was how I am s’pose to face my mom with the car crash.

And she came… talking to the man who I had the participation on this unlikely car accident. It was a T – bone car hit, a side accident where the head of the hitting car goes against on the car doors of another.

It only dawned to me that I was this close to passing out when I handed my license to the police and saw that I was trembling. My hand was shaking. And I was just trying my best to make it happen like I was tired.

It was a nag. Everyone was staring at me. Staff from the DR, some friends and personnel who happen to work in the main center and it seemed like anything on TV.

I can’t break into a laugh but in some way I placed a smile and hoped that I’ll do fine.

It was all over as it had started that instant. I can’t help but think of it until I passed out to sleep and read some good mails from friends. What was good about it, it was a good serving as an initiation and I just wish there wouldn’t be more.

All is well.

Monday, March 21, 2011

I'm not the Man who used to be

What’s in it for you!?
What’s in it for us??

I can never be self-less like this, I used to be self-centered before,
I brought you tears when you needed a smile
I brought sleepless nights when those times we should be havin’ a great time...
Those were before… I learned from it, never to start a relationship unless I chose to.

We meet again; all is well I thought for we’re now wiser than the child we used to be.
All grown up, time and distance brought changes and so the ideas we had.
But look at what happen, I still resolve to reasons at times you think right.

The guilt I have at your pleas.
I don’t want to sound all knowing,
I think of none but your mending heart,
That lovely piece I ought to heal,
The one I broke to pieces when I shouldn’t have to.

I hope you understand,
I’m a changed man,
I’ve learned to close doors when I want to…
I’ve taught my mind to think beyond emotion…
For what I am now… there is one changed thing.

I’m not that boy who can give you the laugh, 
the one to put a smile on your face.
The one you blight to love no more…



 For I’m not the man you used to love before.