So Why Ask.

To ask myself of why I learn, answers the idea of why books were bound.

To ask myself why rain fall, answers how the sky become blue.

To ask why we breathe, answers why the wind keeps blowing.

Ask me though why I love you, I give you answers none at all.

For to love has no reason, has no thought.

One has to feel it, real and pure.

So why ask me how I feel for you, instead of just feeling it true.

I love you.

Shiver, An Untimely Longing.

Sleep with me, my love.

Lie close; bring your arms to mine,

Feel the coarse texture of my hands.

Shiver as I draw lines on your chest.

Caress me like that of a baby,

Place your hands close to me.

Hear my heart, throb deep.

Shiver as I plant kisses on your body.

Tighten, engorged in my strength,

Yield not your thoughts, free your desires.

A nibble from your nape, a kiss down your nipples.

Shiver my love, as I rub my own to yours.

What manly vigor, the man to tease.

I’ll gently hold that what is yours.

Still, hard, an outraged manhood.

Shiver my love, as I wrap on you.

Feel. Indulged. Shiver.

A Good Night End.

I just can’t waste the chance given, to tell the world how much I miss you, how sore I am everyday yet fulfilling what sanity left in me to remain alive and  kicking. To find learning for being apart, to grow without being in each other’s arms, and to feel not what separates but what binds us both. And in time of great desperation, gather strength, let go and hope that a day goodbye is not too soon for a day of hello.

Short this may be, I know in the end it’ll just be you and me.

Strength. Courage. Love.

This is the part of the story where all I can think of is a better end.

This is the part where all I can hope for is lost.

Ever wondered that when the very people you’d expect to support you more and give you their arms strength to hold on to surrendered to demise yet so atypical.

I turn unto them only to be given up for good. Not a chance of survival.

I gather strength close to darkness. Shedding what better light I can provide.

This is the time. This is my test.

When the very choice of being brave, of passing an obstacle and of being strong.

This is the hurdle I was bound to overcome.

I am moving on. I have to. Everything is worth the try.

The story I wish to end is not on this chapter.

I will have a good epilogue. A fruitful close to a dusty beginning.

I am strong. I am. For love.

My Partner. My Love. My Prince... That's Mark.

I am just as proud to say it to the world… I have a partner. I love him so much that I am not building any more barriers even in my blog. Putting away censorship for a good measure beyond what there is to hide at all.

I love my partner. He’s the better one who came and will be my last if he wishes. We know it’s going to be a tough one. But we’ll make it… together.

I love you, Mark.

Just The Jog.

Have to push myself real hard just to get up from bed and roll even more. I could see the few streaks of sunlight touch my window and I know it has been indeed days since my last jog and I’m feeling a little worn out not being able to move my legs and so with a cup of coffee and 2 glassful of water I went off with my routine after taking a good short cold shower to wake the sense out of me.

It was usual… a long walk to the same place I always jogged at and just enjoy the sights. Actually the place is a subdivision that is so far having a few houses in it makes it all still and calm. There was some jet flying 30,000 feet above me but my phone camera is not good enough to take it so I just have to find another good shot as the landscape of sugarcane fields went by in front of me. The subdivision I lived in is situated just near some lands that hacienderos from different lineage have had owned since time could tell and you can look at every sight you can muster filled with those sucrose filled stalks I used to cut down when I was little and enjoy every bite of it. But I’m cutting sugar now; I have quite the sugar rush in me.

Putting that away, I was more eager to just start with my jog as the sun chased me and I don’t want it shedding all those light without me starting a few laps of my own. Unbelievably, the wind is a little cooler and blowing quite hard even it’s the eve of summer and yes… it’s the 1^st of March where it is just s’pose to be so hot. I’m not complaining, I would love to have some air you know. It had been days that the scorching heat plagued every mid-noon and some tedious humid nights and I was too thankful to have one early morning filled with cold embrace from the wind.

It was just same other days I’ve been having, and the place quiet than ever, people now starting to bustle around but it doesn’t seem busy at all, there were a few joggers like me mostly old people with canes, sticks and just chatting around with someone they know and have come to pass by. The swallows would just swoosh down past me, the wind slowly teasing the grass and smoke from burn leaves from afar stains the morning sky… simple and quaint. A little more beyond a plane took off from the tarmac as its engines roared for a push vibrating through the air and filling our ears… the airport is 5 minutes drive from where I live actually and sometimes I would just bless myself with a motorcycle stroll or go cycling to it.

I had a few runs and maybe circled the usual lane I always have until I get my palpitations and make me catch what little breathe I have. Some jog, alright. It was fun though. Having to sweat off and just feel the morning breeze drying you up and the bright sun now hovering above me kissing me with every shed of light it can on me. ‘Twas good, relaxing and comforting.

Just the right kind of thing I do on a jog and the little things that I do enjoy with it. 

Mark, I Love You.

Tonight, I’ll wish the stars to shine bright.

There’d be many songs sang for you.

Many more kisses given and shared.

Yet all we may have, it’s just you that I want.

I’ll love you more than you loving me dear,

I’ll make no promises, my love but do my best.

I’ll walk by as far as we can go, look back not.

If sacrifices be made and choose, I’ll tear away to have you.

I can put up a straight face to show the world I’m strong,

Show them that I’m unbreakable; I’m a lone wild stead,

I’m an alpha male giving all he’s got to make things work,

Just to keep his undivided strength for everyday of being away.

I love you more dearly as you do,

I may not be too expressive like you do,

From all the hurt I’ve got,

But what hurts the most is actually losing you.

So I pray, wish, hope every single day you’d be safe,

Care less of what I am,

Cause I never had someone like you.

A love so real, a love just for you and me.