Love, A Nonsense Definition.

What greater fear it is to love than to live. A lot of man died for this. A lot lost their sanity but for those who brave their own pride just to experience this wonderful feeling gets to be the happiest.

Falling down from a flight of stairs with all the pain thereafter, getting punctured by an unknowing nail, hit by a bludgeon or just slipping and losing a foot to a wet dirty puddle.

Pathetic ways to figure out love or just our own way of explaining it in times we just can’t bear it out.

Who knows we can totally become out of sense when it comes to sharing that same emotional predicament that every being alive gets to share.

Unique, simple and spontaneous in the littlest detail. 

To Live Doesn't Mean Being Alive.

Everything is temporary.

From the beginning until the end all the things felt, experienced and shared never lasts neither too long nor too short. Something summed up hastened by every tick of time or just the sudden events unfolding.

That actual breathing, the very beat, and the quickest of senses; all comes down to a permanent stop.

Begin.

That one step we make in every walk. Everything seems too innocent for a start to be considered. In every passing time that we choose to keep going, to stop when we needed to or spare a glance of what keeps us walking with time. Letting go of what beauty we passed through, to appreciate to what lies ahead and dream of the rest beyond that barren landscape.

11:59.

At that single tick of time. Waiting for eternity to blast in front an impatient second as one endures the length of actually passing out. The bells ringing inside telling the author to reply with a rather predicted outburst, to leer on some thought that might just change the rolling dice. 

A Friend To Keep.

So here’s a thought I’d like to share,

That I was grace to have crossed your path.

Not even a single clue if we’d last.

One thing is good; we’d actually click that instant.

I saw you first and I thought I’d want to know,

At first, I was bit scared to even try.

Befriending someone far from my league

Sooner then that decision was the happiest yet.

We only knew each other through a common friend,

But nothing can explain how comfortable we were,

To talk about what’s life going to be.

To one fact hanging that we never have had actually meet.

You’re like the best friend I never had,

An astral soul mate of some sort.

Being inane for blasting off what misery I can get myself into,

Sparing your time just to be a listener for this fool.

And on that day, we barely had.

It was an experience to look back for,

The silly awkwardness like an out-takes from a film,

We’d smile at each other acting just like complete strangers.

Everything was spontaneous that day, too innocent in some way,

Simple and cute for two adults (did I just refer us to adults?!? Weird, huh),

Yet in between we can’t help but escape our shy smiles.

For that meet-up may be short, just spending it seems worth it all.

It’s a moment to remember, and it won’t be the last.

It’s a beginning of a good friendship; the best yet is to come.

For meeting you is the second best thing I’ve done,

Finding you is the first!

Cheers for the good times!

Afternoon Bliss.

Afternoons are mostly the best time of day for me… it’s almost the end of something started from dawn and when dusk is just about to turn into night I can’t help but indulge myself with some few laps and solitary stroll for my own.

It was a good thing that I can find an escape hole from all the things either way I was able to solve or not during the wakeful state of my mind.

I can go around the city either by walking or just by using a good pair of wheels up front and back and stroll around the piazza and care less about the traffic. I love these times, the hi-way a bit too busy for their own to see the few lights shining its way as dusk embraces, the sound of sirens, people chattering and the sudden honking from the cars swerving from curves and bends.

Panoramic yet catchy at some vantage point though I’d prefer the quiet and cool breeze around the subdivision where I usually take on most of my biking get away.

I can enjoy the sites, the sun setting and the people cowering back home as the night slowly fades all the brightness the sun can give.

An expiration date for what the day has to offer a blissful moment for me. I find good thoughts as birds slowly make themselves in trees and sing their lyric-less chirps to another as bats fill the sky looking for some insects flying in the midst of their empty stomach from all the daylight hibernation.

There is a place for me on these times. A quiet rendition of life taken from an egoistic insensibility given by nature only a few can appreciate and bring awe to the soul.

Good Mornings.

It was half past 5:00 am of today, I woke up all eyes open and it was just too darn early. Checked my facebook, saw him and how much he just laid his life, hoping he’s all happy and that. I don’t have to keep on thinking about him anymore. So without much ado I decided to go on a jog without actually taking a short shower.

It was a laugh, really. The water was freezing.

I went outside and squeezed what better muscles I’ve had after all these months of not stretching them out on a run, and went on walking. The place too early and since it was a weekday the road was almost filled with busy people getting ready for an early presence at work or in school. I just minded my own business and had a start on it; I tried a few short laps and finally decided to walk to the place where I do my usual routine since my legs just started to ache… I guess that felt like havin’ it for the first time. Dang it!

The sun was almost rising and I couldn’t hide the thought of taking a picture of it. It looks nice. Made me imagine it was the same scene on Christina Perri’s A Thousand Years music video and yeah, it does.

The feeling was surreal, I’ve always liked the sun rising and the good things it makes you think on how wonderful life can be. How you wanted to feel inspired as you start your day and all the things you may want to do for the entire page of yet another life’s chapter. It’s just a refresher.

I had a few run-ins with some folks, neighbors and of course a few good sites too when all I thought of some parental together-ness. I saw this much younger looking older guy whatever that meant, on white shirt and red shorts running side by side a boy. At first I saw it is as quite fatherly for him the older one and when they went pass in front of me, dang he’s just too young to be that boy’s father and looks good too. I laugh at myself having to enjoy these kind of self appreciation and looked back I haven’t had time to do that myself in months now. Completely lost in time for drooling myself over one person and waste away the small things that mattered most. Ha!

 And so, placing away those thoughts I went to visit my grandparents, hurried for a sip of cool water as I was not only thirsty and hungry too. Enjoyed a good session on a cable TV, looking up on every channel for something interesting but didn't get much into seeing one besides some war movies I have always enjoyed watching. Stayed there for some good 45 minutes and scurried off back home, too absorbed into making this blog entry and how much I should be bragging about a wonderful day ahead.

And, dance practice will be starting later. I’m back to swaying my hips and getting fit.

Dreamt of being in a church last night, searched through the net before I went jogging and it felt great that I needed some little spiritual help and need my faith level up these times. It was a good feeling I’m receiving that kind of guidance for myself as I have that urge to look for it. Help does come to those who deserve it.

All the more, I’m living happy I guess. I should be. I’m all hopes up to myself and my future.

Smiles J